The past few days I have been recalling things from the past. In this battened down world we live in, all climate controlled interiors and automobiles. So much concern over every thing under the sun.
It rained some this week. Not so unusual. Except I never smelled it. Once upon a time, I would smell the rain before it arrived. We lived with open windows and screen doors that were latched at night only to keep the coons out. The wooden door stayed open. When a rain shower or storm was approaching, we could hear the thunder and smell the rain coming, I miss that.
This evening, I determined to sit outside as long as the mosquitoes would allow. As the evening faded to dusk, bright thunderheads billowed above darker clouds to the east. A rumble of thunder sounded. It didn’t come close enough to smell it.
I could hear the shrieks of children playing in the neighborhood. That used to be us in this very place.
The cicadas and crickets and frogs sang a deafening chorus. Shadows darkened. The evening sky was still pale. A dark flicker appeared. Bats! A couple of bats danced across the sky.
A made my way into the house reluctantly. Wanting to stay out in the coming darkness. Needing to come in and get ready for bed. I wanted to check on him, too.
He works painfully long hours. His day job and then the cows, along with all the other chores that living requires, makes for one tired fella.
I’m not much of a cow dog for him, but I get out there and try to move the way he says. We started the morning doing just that. They all loaded right up for a trip to the vet for shots. Lucky me!
I keep trying to find the magic in the ordinary. Most days I find one or two things. Some days, I come up blank. Some days, every thing feels magic.
I should be wrapping presents. I have almost everything purchased. We sent a box to California, today. I hope it makes it before Christmas. If not, it will still be full of goodies when it gets there.
Last week, I refinished a table. Photos below. I used chalk paint to redo an old coffee table I found at a junk shop. I filled it with votive candles and two birds over a crocheted doily a dear lady made for me years ago.
This past weekend my niece brought my little nieces for a visit. Among the fun was cocoa served from an old tea pot alongside homemade shortbread frosted with milk chocolate and Christmas sprinkles. We used the table featured in the photos for this event. It was the follow up to an adventure in town walking through a park filled with Christmas light displays.
We walked and raced round the creek and pond, pausing to look at the lights and get out of the way of the train. We opted to walk rather than wait with a two year old in the line to ride the train. It was a great option. She slept soundly, barely moving all night! This matters because she was in bed with me.
Our daughter and her loves will be here this weekend to have our Christmas with them. I should be wrapping presents.
I am enjoying the season more this year than I usually do. It feels a little more magical for some reason. A sign of healing? The grief of so much loss is releasing its grip, perhaps? I am believing Him for that.
I care greatly about several friends and some family members whose grief might never be relieved this side of Heaven. This season reminds them of the moment tragedy struck. The decorations that were so brilliantly beautiful before that moment of disaster now glare and blur through the tears that still linger in their hearts. I pray for His Peace to pour into their spirits and His Joy to fill their hearts.
I am grateful I have joy this season. I will savor my joy with praise and thanksgiving. Not smugly, but carefully. Mindful of those who do not have it.
And yet, I want some moments of wild abandon. Exuberant joy overflowing and bursting out. Thrills seeing lights and tinsel, pretty presents all wrapped under the tree, my heart beating rapidly as the children pull into the driveway. Our son and his bride and our little Princess will not be here physically. But distance is no master to Love. They will be here in my heart for Christmas. I will hug our daughter, her groom and our “borrowed” grand all the tighter for it.
Well, enough for now. I should be wrapping presents. Here is my pre-holiday project. I am well-pleased with the outcome.